TenshinKun

Hello! I am so low with motivation and ideas so I thought if someone would like to art trade with me? Just contact me on this journal or chat with me! Im kinda up for anything! Only condition is that I will only upload when you are also done, because many times before I didnt recieve my part soooooo

Take care ! <3

I don't really know what to do. I have accepted my feelings and everything is going better for each day.. but accepting my feelings, understanding that I still love him even tho he completely broke me, is breaking me even more.. but if I say I hate him and such, it hurts all day..

And his mother is angry at me.. saying I should't call him or anyone a cheating bastard.. and she says that he felt completely loney after I moved (which makes it sound like its my fault he lost feelings for me.. which made me cry a lot yesterday..) and I don't think she knows what he has done, and that makes me look like im the bad guy in this story.

That hurts me so much too, because his mother is so sweet and I really liked her..

In 4 days I will talk with someone and maybe found out what I can do with everything.

He knows I still love him, cuz I told him 3 days ago.. and I also asked him to not respond because that would hurt me even more. And he didn't...

Gosh I miss him..

But I also know I cannot take him back.. the trust is completely gone, everyone hates him who knows the story and I am in so much pain.

I hope it will help to talk in Thursday.. wish me luck <3

Hello again

I just thought that I was going to write and tell you how I feel now, after everything. I am strong.

Ofcours Ive been sad and angry. But now I can see that I am strong and I can be happy without my ex.

Sure, I miss him a lot. But I don't think he misses me, so... why should I?

Yesterday I got a tattoo of my dogs paw, and I cut and bleached my hair. So now Im on my way towards what I want to be. Me.

I hope everyone out there is having a great time, and hope you will have a great weekend! :)

Okay, first of all I want to apoligize for my bad english. It's not my native language...

I just wanted to share a ''story'' with some of you in case you are going through or have been through the same shit as I have.

Right after my graduation, I started to work at a supermarket, and there I met a man (8 years older than me) who I became interested in directly, but being who I am I was shy and never thought someone would like me.

But, he contacted me and asked if I wanted a drive home so I wouldn't need to take the bus, and I agreed, cuzed there was something about this man that I was dragged to. After that he continued to flirt with me through facebook and I was attracted to him. But I was nervous... I have never been in a real relationship before and never ''done the things''. But with him, I did. It took some time, but I was afraid to loose him. I became so In love with him. I read our messeges over and over again, and I looked at his pictures everytime I could. And he loved me too... I think. We traveled to Mallorca together and had an amazing trip. And after that we signed a contract and moved in together Januari 2018. But... it didn't turn out so good. We didn't do ''the thing'' as often and I knew something was wrong, so I started to fight for it. I ate less and tried to work out (just so I would get sexier for him).. but he broke up with me in mars and I was so heartbroken. But he took me back a week after, but did the same after a week again and then took me back.. and I was even more heartbroken. I just felt that I needed to become the best girlfriend ever. So I continued to eat less and workout and never told him when I was sad or such. I tried doing the ''thing'' with him, even if I wasn't ready (so it hurt so much.. for hours afterwards).. He didn't rape me.. it was I who did it. I don't know how to explain it.. but I really wanted to give him pleasure and such. I bought lots of things for his birthday and yada yada. But we had a fight in like July 2018 about him liking another girls sexy photo on instagram.. and after that he felt falling away from me again and I felt so sick and scared of going through that AGAIN. And I did. He broke up with me again, and I moved home to my father... But ofc he contacted me again and told me he felt so bad and that he was regreting everything, but I tried to be hard and say that I am scared that he might do it again... But after we met a few times, we kissed (in his new apartment) and we did the ''thing'' (its even more akward writing the thing instead of sex.. but whatever...) And we were together again. And he was there for me when my grandma past away October 2018, and we traveled to a place called Ullared in Sweden, and It was so good. But this year, when I knew that I had to move away from him (far away) because I had to study, I felt that it would drive us apart again..

But I hoped it would work out. But he didn't give me the love I needed. He didn't tell me how much I ment for him, never that I was beautiful nor anything like that. Just a heart sometimes a day, and a I love you. But never that he misses me and such. So I told him and asked if he could do that more and he told me he was going to try.. but I never saw any progress and I asked if he wanted to fight for me, cuz I was feeling like shit not meeting him for a few weeks, but he couldnt..

He felt he couldn't fight for us.. giving me more love than he could give..

So I broke up with him last week.. and it hurts so much.

I was fighting so hard.. for 3 fucking years... and he couldn't fight for me...

I love him still.. so much it hurts. But I know I shouldn't.. He don't deserve me. Im an amazing girlfriend and I would do ANYTHING for him. A part of me is hoping that he will come back and fight.. but the other part is hoping he will do something like '' Go into a new relationship'' or something so I can be pissed and more heartbroken.. but that would be easier for me to loose my feelings for him.

I don't really know why I wrote this.. I didn't tell you about all the amazing times I had with him, how he made me fell happy for so many times.. nor the times he made me feel really sad. This is a long story short.

I hope if you are out there, going through the same thing as I..

Don't give him / her more than one chance... Thet don't deserve you If they broke up with you and then crawled back.

Stay safe <3

Hi! Im open for some commissions now. Only rule I have is that you need to send the points before I do the commission. Sorry for no examples, but I don't really know how to work with the new dA features.

I DON'T DRAW:

* Hardcore hentai 

I DO DRAW:

* Dogs/Wolves * Dragons * Pokemons/Digimons * Yaoi/Yuri * Anime/Manga characters * Your own OC's * ''Realistic''  * Or ask if you want something specific.

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PRICES:

Headshot - 40 

*No specific background - Just colors and some shading *Just one character, if you want one more it's +10 * Can be both animals or humans (Not realistic) 

''Realistic/cartoonish'' - 100 

* Will take longer time to do

* I am just a beginner

* Full body +50 

* No detailed background

Full - Animals - 80 

* With background + 40 

* I can draw different kinds of positions

* With more characters it will be +10/extra character

Traditional - 50-100

* 50 if just headshots, 100 if full body

* I can add some colors

* No background

* 50+ for extra character

FULL-CARTOONISH- 150  

* Add 15+ for more characters

Couple-drawing - 200 

* I love drawing ''love''

* No Hentai!

* The price is only for 2 characters. 

* +10 for extra characters

CHIBI - 20 

* I love drawing Chibi

* Add +10 for extra characters

* No detailed background

BLACK AND WHITE - 15  

* With lineart, no color, black background

* I can add some effects (like blood, tears or eyecolor)

* Add +5 for extra characters

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ART TRADE/REQUESTS

Information:

I am always open for Art trades! Just note me if you want to do an art trade!

Requests aren't always open. ASK ME! *thumbs up*

NOTE ME! 

Some times, I won't be able to do the commissions in a short time,  because I need to focus on school and other things.

THANK YOU!~